Doc Mimay Notes

While having my break, i decided to sit at one of the benches of the park near the hospital (where i am working) with my soda crackers trying to catch a breath of fresh air. There i saw an old man with an old woman. From my view, i can see that he is patiently taking care of her, giving her food, asking what she needs and all. I decided to come closer, sit at the bench where i can observe them closely. the sight of long and lasting love makes me wonder if true love that can endure the challenges of time really exists. Coming close, hearing better, I realise that love knows no boundaries, and it is not something that can be tested through distance and time but rather a love that can last a lifetime.

while browsing thru Facebook.. i stumbled upon this article, shared by 2 of my Facebook friends from theprayingwoman.com i clicked the link and started reading... next thing i know am already crying....

when i was a kid, i saw my mom as a school principal with many rules.. don't do this, don't do that, fix your bed, clean this up, blah blah blah. but growing up, i realized, she just love us enough to make an orderly, peaceful, safe home.  every morning she will wake up early and will prepare breakfast for us, pero dahil ang bagal namin kumilos, hindi na namin nakakain ang mga hinahanda nya. minsan gumagawa pa sya ng pizza para ganahan kami kumain, pero ganun pa din naiiwan namin ng walang bawas. but even though we were doing it every morning, she will still prepare for breakfast for the next morning, and the next and the next. looking back-- i saw how painful it is.

A test of FAITH Today marked the 2 nd day that I am not required to open and read these numerous books and handouts I can now only see afar. The time 1 wouldn’t be guilty if ever I will end up with longer hours of sleep (than what I am supposed to). Because for the 1 st time, I don’t have an idea of what am I going to do next. The very same day, I was having tremors as I opened the PRC website, having mixed emotions on what am I gonna see… WHERE IT ALL STARTED? Why I wanted to become a doctor.

You’ve been my seatmate almost my entire medschool, about 74.98% of the time. You have been my friend since then. But this past 4 months was what a hell-of-a-ride with you. You were my friend then, and I know, you are still now but much closer—with additional pinch of trust, seasoned with belongingness. The dreaded fight becomes a lot easier when you have someone fighting with you.

Minsan, sabi nila, “You are blessed with the opportunity of not knowing it all”, sabi naman ng iba, “there’s nothing to be worried about, There is no fear, in not knowing”.   But that isn’t my case, I wish I can remember less, I wish I see less, hear few—I wish I haven’t seen them at all. But no! God has given me the gift of hyperthymism. Gift? Or a curse I am bound to live with for the rest of my life.

“We used to be best buddies and now were not,  I wish you could tell me why? .. Please I know you're in there, people are asking where  you've  been they say, "Have courage!" and am trying to am right here for you, just let me in We only have each other, its  just  you and me.. what are we gonna do? Do you want to build a snowman? It  doesn't  have to be a snowman. Ok bye..” A year ago, the time I learned that my only sister is getting married, I started to cry every time am hearing this song. Feeling ko kasi kami sila elsa and anna, only the other way around, she is the jolly, happy anna and am the isolated, serious elsa.   I don’t know when will I ever be ready for this day, I guess standing here in front of everybody, I never was.

“Walang kabuluhan ng walang kabuluhan sabi ng mangangaral, lahat ay walang kabuluhan” Meaning please???? Pagtatanungin mo ang tatay ko kung ano ang paborito niyang talata sa bibliya, sigurado ako at wala pang isang Segundo, ito ang isasagot niya. At bilang bata, isa lang ang reaksyon naming lahat sa tuwing sasabihin nya yan., ang tumawa ng tumawa…sa kakaisip na baka siya ay nagpapatawa lang. Sino ba naman ang seryosong tao ang magsasabi ng isang pangungusap na puro “walang kabuluhan” ang laman. Ang dami namang ibang laman ang bibliya, mga sikat pa! madalas mo pang makita sa kahit na saan. Sa libro, sa simula ng artikulo, minsan pati sa mga key chain at mga establishimento..bakit iyon pa?

 I had this Vietnamese co-intern way back in my college days, who knows how to do palm-reading. I was not really into those things, as I believe we are responsible for every decisions we made and we will make that can determine our destiny, however everybody is so hooked up to know what future their palms might tell them.. finally I decided to give it a chance. After reading my palm, I was like “Oh My.., She’s Right..”