Doc Mimay Notes

While having my break, i decided to sit at one of the benches of the park near the hospital (where i am working) with my soda crackers trying to catch a breath of fresh air. There i saw an old man with an old woman. From my view, i can see that he is patiently taking care of her, giving her food, asking what she needs and all. I decided to come closer, sit at the bench where i can observe them closely. the sight of long and lasting love makes me wonder if true love that can endure the challenges of time really exists. Coming close, hearing better, I realise that love knows no boundaries, and it is not something that can be tested through distance and time but rather a love that can last a lifetime.

i was sorting some old stuff in my room, when i came across a folded 2 piece yellowish old bond paper, a photocopy of an article from signs of the times way back 2001. it was the same article na na-touched ako years ago, kayo pinaphotocopy ko. i knew there was something important with this that i kept it for a very long time... i read it again... and i cried.. and it seems like i am reading it for the first time again.

when i was a kid, i saw my mom as a school principal with many rules.. don't do this, don't do that, fix your bed, clean this up, blah blah blah. but growing up, i realized, she just love us enough to make an orderly, peaceful, safe home.  every morning she will wake up early and will prepare breakfast for us, pero dahil ang bagal namin kumilos, hindi na namin nakakain ang mga hinahanda nya. minsan gumagawa pa sya ng pizza para ganahan kami kumain, pero ganun pa din naiiwan namin ng walang bawas. but even though we were doing it every morning, she will still prepare for breakfast for the next morning, and the next and the next. looking back-- i saw how painful it is.

A test of FAITH Today marked the 2 nd day that I am not required to open and read these numerous books and handouts I can now only see afar. The time 1 wouldn’t be guilty if ever I will end up with longer hours of sleep (than what I am supposed to). Because for the 1 st time, I don’t have an idea of what am I going to do next. The very same day, I was having tremors as I opened the PRC website, having mixed emotions on what am I gonna see… WHERE IT ALL STARTED? Why I wanted to become a doctor.

“We used to be best buddies and now were not,  I wish you could tell me why? .. Please I know you're in there, people are asking where  you've  been they say, "Have courage!" and am trying to am right here for you, just let me in We only have each other, its  just  you and me.. what are we gonna do? Do you want to build a snowman? It  doesn't  have to be a snowman. Ok bye..” A year ago, the time I learned that my only sister is getting married, I started to cry every time am hearing this song. Feeling ko kasi kami sila elsa and anna, only the other way around, she is the jolly, happy anna and am the isolated, serious elsa.   I don’t know when will I ever be ready for this day, I guess standing here in front of everybody, I never was.